Would you rather be rich or poor? Unless you're a dummy I'm guessing you'd choose to be rich right? Who WANTS to be poor and have to struggle to just survive? Now would you rather be an introvert and feel uncomfortable in every social situation or would you rather be an extrovert and have people glowingly excited to meet and talk to you? Unless you'e a dummy I'm guessing you'd choose to be an extrovert right? Who WANTS to be an introvert and have to struggle in social situations to survive?
I'm not sure what makes people an introvert or an extrovert but I would love to know. Growing up always felt safest with 1 or 2 close friends rather than being an acquaintance to everyone at school. Everyone liked me at school (I mean whats not to like though?) but I just assumed you could only have 1 or 2 best friends and then you just KNEW everyone else. I didn't think it was a problem growing up (unless my only friend couldn't hang out and then I was bored) but as I got older I realized I had set myself up for failure.
Now to throw a wrench into the gears of who you think I am, I feel most comfortable around extroverts. They elevate me, they energize me, it's like looking into the magic mirror of who I want to be. Being a photographer means I have to make people comfortable immediately after meeting them so I can take their photo that captures their true and most comfortable self. I'm really good at this which is indicative of an extrovert yet I will go to one of my wife's work parties or some other social gathering and will be frozen in fear to talk to anyone which is indicative of an introvert.
Maybe it's simply just being in control of a situation and knowing that a limp noodle of a human will never make anyone feel comfortable enough to take a photo of someone that they will love. If you ask my wife Stormi, she would tell you Im anything but an introvert but that doesn't change how I feel inside. I'm Extroverted enough to meet a complete stranger make them feel comfortable enough to drop their shield so I can take their photo and yet I'm Introverted enough that the thought of answering the phone to a number I don't know will send me into a cold sweat. I feel like I'm an extrovert stuck in an introverts body.
Anyone else out their feel the same way? Let me know I'm not alone out there.